I'm a Mother of Two

Reading through my last posts and it seems like a lifetime away.  I am a mommy again.  To a beautiful little girl named Kate Elise.  Kate is already 8 months old and has turned my life upside down the same way Jane did.  She was born the day after Thanksgiving.  She has a condition called Congenital Hypothyroidism which landed her in the NICU due to extremely high bilirubin levels a few days after she initially came home from the hospital.  You think I was too worried about Jane, eh?  Kate's hypothyroidism is easily controlled but at first it was horrifying.  While we were in the NICU I lost 20 pounds.  In 3 days.  It was bad. 

But that is all in the past.  She is absolutely thriving.  Started crawling at 7 months old, she's got 6 teeth, babbles up a storm and smiles ALL THE TIME.  She was 9 lbs 3 oz when she was born so she beat Jane by 3 oz.  She's a chunky little thing born with a head full of dark hair that is now turning blonde.  Blue eyes.  She adores her sister, Jane.

Jane did extremely well and is still doing extremely well with being a big sister.  The nights I was in the hospital and then the NICU with Kate I didn't see Jane at all.  That was terribly hard on me.  I cried about missing Jane and feeling guilty a lot.  Jane suffered, but she did great with her Grandma and Grandpa.  She's a trooper.  She'll be going to preschool this fall.  Two days a week for 3 hours at a time.  Then she will go back to Miss Marie's (who is excellent...I doubted her before, but we really do like her now) for the rest of the day.  I am still working 3 days a week.  Mom watches Kate for those 3 days but Jane goes to Miss Marie's.

I love my life and my children but to say it is hectic is an understatement.  I am incredibly stressed out with having two beautiful little girls who depend on me for everything.  They are both so young right now that I get NO time to myself.  I know this is fleeting.  I am in a very tough yet wonderful period in my life.  I am trying to enjoy it but just keeping the household together is so hard.  We've done well this summer getting out a lot (relatively speaking).  I get overwhelmed A LOT though.  Stopped my Zoloft again.  Didn't think it was helping.

We're putting the house on the market soon.  My dad had back surgery 3 weeks ago.  DH is getting his master's degree (against my wishes).  Jane will also be going to dance one night a week starting soon.  It's life and a lot is going on but I am enjoying it...mostly.

I ADORE MY TWO GIRLS.