10/29/09

Today is the last Thursday I will come into my office and sit in front of the computer screen ALL DAY LONG. This time next week I will be able to take naps WITH Jane. I will be the one to change her diapers. I will be the one who takes her on walks. I will get to play with her and cuddle with her and talk to her and just adore her. I am going to get to see her 40% more than I do now. I am SO excited!!!

Things have been going very well. Jane started sleeping better because I accepted the fact that we were going to co-sleep and I couldn't "train" her to sleep in her crib. And then, just this last week, things have been getting worse again because she wakes up pumped and ready to go at like 2 am. It takes literally 2 hours to get her to go back to sleep for just another hour or so. It's brutal. But it won't be like this for long. And working part-time is going to help with this because on Thursday and Friday I will get to NAP WITH HER. And you better believe I am going to. (My sincere apologies to Housework and Dinner on the Table.)

Jane is six months old and then some. It's a bit sobering how quickly these six months have gone by. In one way I feel like I was pregnant with her about a decade ago. But then again, I can't possibly have a six-month old daughter! She's growing so fast I can seriously see it. She's an amazing girl. Not what I would call an easy baby but she's just my universe. I worship her.

My entire life since April has been about her. I can't really concentrate on anything that doesn't have to do with Jane. I have become "that Mommy" who I really loathed before I had my own. It's sobering when I think of all the things I said I would never do. I take them back. Oops. My bad.